Train of thought via the pity party.June 7, 2009 at 1:25 PM | Posted in Mundane in the Brain, Preposterous Ponderance | 3 Comments
Tags: angsterbation, eyes
Today is not that great of a day for my eyes. I’m feeling more closed in and everything is making me nauseous. Even scrolling a browser page is making my stomach lurch.
I now know I have to put a timer on my phone when I’m out alone without the husband if I am the driver. The other night I had driven over to a friends place while my husband stayed at home waiting for his Mother and brother to arrive in town. I left about 4:30pm and lately the sun doesn’t set until about 9pm. I lost track of time and it was just after 9pm that I headed for home. The sun was mostly down and every car’s lights were on. Not fun. I hate car lights with a passion. They feel like mini suns that continuously stab me in the eyes with beams. It hurts.
A new thing happened this time, I got motion sickness. The only time I ever got motion sickness in the car while growing up was when I was reading. This was not a nice addition to situations that cause motion sickness.
Now on the list is action movies at the theatre (which makes me cry just thinking about it, I love movies!!!), reading in a moving vehicle, sometimes long boat rides, and now driving in low light.
Today seems like a not happy day in that everything is making me sick. The television, reading a book, computer- what the heck am I supposed to do with myself on a rainy day?!?! We were supposed to go to the zoo today but it won’t be as fun in the rain. How am I supposed to enjoy a wonderfully rainy day without a book to read? I have a couple audio books but what should I do with my hands? Knit? Well, I could do that, but I’m being whiney and don’t wanna.
I don’t know how I’m going to handle not being able to see to do anything. I’m working on a painting. How will I paint when I can’t see it? I will have to go abstract or something? Maybe I can figure out a paint by braille numbers…..
Pity party at my place.
I’m thinking of challenging myself every once in a while. I should blindfold myself for a whole day or more and try to make the most of it. No, not the most of it, the best I can be, with or without sight.
I also need to find or actually search for a program to enable me to be still addicted to the Internet and my computer when I can’t see the screen. Anyone know of a good program?